I
apparently fall apart the day after a convention. I sleep until noon, or
there-abouts, even though I know sleeping so long will make me feel crappy when
I do get up. And sure enough, I get up with a splitting head-ache, a body that
wants me to eat anything in sight (I can’t do that anymore), and a desire to
mark the day a complete failure and crawl back into bed - which I’m pretty sure
would not help.
Why do I
do that? I’m not positive, but I’m thinking I am trying to make up to myself
for spending 3 days at a convention. Don’t get me wrong; I LIKE conventions. I
like costumes and shopping in the dealer’s room, attending panels. I even like
giving panels, when the panels are of my choosing. Hospitality suites have
become something of a no-no, because the convention’s finances often dictate
that they are full of candy, chips and other things I should not be eating (no
matter how much I want to), and few of the types of things I can eat without
guilt. I’ve started taking my own fruits and vegetables to help me get through
the weekend.
Still,
much as I like conventions, they are 3 days spent in fairly close quarters with
lots of people, when - as an introvert - I am only comfortable interacting with
one or two at a time. [So if you see me at a convention, and you try to get my
attention but can’t, it’s probably because in order to maintain my sanity, I
ignore everybody but the one I’m talking to, or the item I’m looking at.] Even
though I take breaks during those 3 days to ‘hide’ in our room (as my hubby
says), I am still worn out after the con.
Just to
complicate things, I also spend those 3 days trying to semi-keep up with my
extrovert hubby, as well as take care of my own things. When will he need to
get into costume and have his makeup applied? And how can we fit that around my
schedule of panels? Inevitably, when I have a break and am looking for a late
lunch, he’s already eaten (probably with friends) and suggests I go check out
the Hospitality Suite - where all those no-nos are. The same can be said for
supper, a lot of times. By the time I get home from the con, my meds have been
skipped more than they’ve been taken (because I need to take them with food).
So. That
all gives me some ideas on how to hopefully avoid this Monday-morning reaction
to conventions. First, get up at a decent time and try to treat it as a normal
day; if anybody is at home with me, it won’t be more than the younger son and
the dog, and they tend to leave me alone; take a short nap later if I’m still
tired. Second, take charge of my own well-being at a con. If hubby has already
eaten, or isn’t ready to eat, I’m perfectly capable of going to a restaurant
myself. I’m a grown woman, and this inability to cope punishes me. Not eating
regularly and not taking my meds regularly threaten my health. Not getting up
at a decent time deprives me of that day’s writing time.
I deserve better than that. Right?
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