I love math, from the time I was a
small child and it was known as ‘Arithmetic’. The more I used arithmetic to
find sums and differences, products and quotients, the more I noticed all the
neat little tricks and rules that numbers used.
You know the kind of thing I talking
about. 5 times any other number always produces a number where the ‘ones’ digit
is either 5 or 0. 9 times any number between (and including) 1 through 10
always equals a number where the separate digits, when added together, equals
9. If you don’t know this little ‘rule’, check it out for yourself. For example
9 X 6 = 63. 6 + 3 = 9. It works until you go past 10, then it gets a little
tricky. But I haven’t figured out a rule for 11 through 20, or anything above
10.
And each year, it seemed like
arithmetic presented me with new things to play with. Numbers squared and
cubed. Square roots. Imaginary numbers!!! Not only would I always do my home
work assignments, but I was likely to attempt some of the harder problems that
hadn’t been assigned to us, just to see if I could do them.
Eventually, arithmetic became
Algebra I, Geometry, Algebra II. I still did all my assigned problems, but now
I was attempting the harder problems with the encouragement of my teachers. My one regret from that time was that
I never managed to prove the Pythagorean Theorem the way Pythagoras did it.
Hmmm, that problem has been simmering away on the back burner of my mind for
about 50 hears now. Maybe I should take another stab at it.
My senior year in high school, I was
the only girl in 4th year math, known as “Trigonometry and Math Analysis.” I’m
not sure where the ‘analysis’ came in at. The entire year was like every other
year of math: “This is how you do these problems. Now, on page *, do these
problems so I can see that you understand what you just learned.” Somehow, I
missed the clues that we were now analyzing how anything in the real world
worked.
Then I started college. I was
assigned to Calculus I, which I had rather expected to happen. It wasn’t like I
had flunked any of my math classes. So try to imagine my surprise to overhear
one kid from Chicago complain that he had been placed in pre-Calculus, even
though he had taken pre-Calculus in high school. “Oh, you poor kid,” my
thoughts went. “How disappointing for you.”
Then I started Calc I. Whoa!! I was
not used to taking a class in an auditorium packed to the gills. Or even a
half-empty auditorium. And no microphone for the teacher, so it was next to
impossible to hear him, particularly since he bulled his way through his entire
lecture in a monotone, without stopping to ask if there were any questions or
offer any examples. The book I had to pay lots of good money for didn’t explain
anything in a way I could understand it. On Tuesday and Thursday, I had
‘homework lab’, where I could ask older students for help with my homework.
Inevitably, our conversations went something like this:
Him: This is how you do this type of problem.
Me: But why does that work?
Him: It just does.
Me: When you do that, what kind of a result are you looking for?
Him: This is how you do this type of problem.
I no longer understood math. It no
longer made any sense to me.
To be fair, I was going through some
traumatic personal events in my life at that time. So a few years later, I went
back to a (different) college to try again. I seemed to make a little headway
in Calc I. By which I mean, I caught onto a few references to sines and
co-sines during the lectures. The new book - which I again had paid lots of cash
for - didn’t seem much better than the first. But mostly I was again just
following the ‘rules’ for ‘how to do these problems’, without much understanding
of what I was doing, why I was doing it, or what the answer told me.
But I made it through Calc I and
Calc II and a couple other math classes. And then... more traumatic life
events, and I again dropped school.
I would love to get my degree, just
to prove than I can. But I didn’t really want to tackle Calculus again and
suffer the same frustration, so I voiced the desire, but never really made any
effort to get there.
Have you ever tried one of the ‘For
Dummies’ books? My husband and I were recently at our makerspace when my laptop
died. Hub wasn’t ready to leave, so I wandered over to see what they had on
their reading shelf. And there I found “Calculus for Dummies”.
How hard could it be? Worst case, I
wouldn’t understand it, but that was where I was, anyway. So I read the first
chapter. And then the 2nd chapter... It made sense! This guy was explaining it
in simple terms, reminding his readers of foundation knowledge that they might
have forgotten and showing how things fit together.
I had to return the book to the
makerspace. Time to get my own copy.
Here I come again, Math!